-licks-

Yeh, I'm back.
I'm becoming more comfortable using this as an outlet for my emotions, which is good when the emotions are related to a single person and I dont have the balls to MAKE something happen my way, for once.
It would be nice, but I'm simply not forceful enough. >.<
Nor do I wish to be that forceful, so I just have to wait and see... xD
-sigh- I need to learn how to make myself more desireable... but just for him. I dont want anyone else to think 'Hey, she's hot, I must shag her' 'cause that would just be awkward!
No. I would be happy with one.
HELL!
I am perfectly happy with him talking to me!
I dont need him to like me back...
Im just happy with him talking to me. :)

Taken Chances.

SO!
I was brave last night, and (with the help of a very spectacular best friend) I told the guy I like, that I liked him.
The kicker??
He hasn't mentioned it, replied, or ANYTHING.
-facepalm-
It's like... why bother? Why bother, when all your gonna get is a feeling that your not even worth a reply to a txt message.
Sucks.
But, I'm actually not that pissed about it.
xD
He's worth it. I think. :)

;)
I hope.

Kaisa'x

Loneliness.

When I was a few years younger than I am now, I used to think that loneliness was a feeling you got when you were apart from people for a long time.
That no matter what, if people were around you, you wouldn't be lonely.
Looking back, I now see that I was naive.
After going through my first relationships, and seeing them tank in horrible fiery messes, I now know that you dont need to be apart from everyone to be lonely.
You just need to be apart from the one you wanna see.
I am finally starting to comprehend.
A year is a long time to be lonely, and for a long time, I was content.
But in recent weeks, in particular the last week or two, I have started to feel it more present. The attention I have recieved from him has clouded my vision in regards to what I am used to.
I am lonely.