-licks-

Yeh, I'm back.
I'm becoming more comfortable using this as an outlet for my emotions, which is good when the emotions are related to a single person and I dont have the balls to MAKE something happen my way, for once.
It would be nice, but I'm simply not forceful enough. >.<
Nor do I wish to be that forceful, so I just have to wait and see... xD
-sigh- I need to learn how to make myself more desireable... but just for him. I dont want anyone else to think 'Hey, she's hot, I must shag her' 'cause that would just be awkward!
No. I would be happy with one.
HELL!
I am perfectly happy with him talking to me!
I dont need him to like me back...
Im just happy with him talking to me. :)

Taken Chances.

SO!
I was brave last night, and (with the help of a very spectacular best friend) I told the guy I like, that I liked him.
The kicker??
He hasn't mentioned it, replied, or ANYTHING.
-facepalm-
It's like... why bother? Why bother, when all your gonna get is a feeling that your not even worth a reply to a txt message.
Sucks.
But, I'm actually not that pissed about it.
xD
He's worth it. I think. :)

;)
I hope.

Kaisa'x

Loneliness.

When I was a few years younger than I am now, I used to think that loneliness was a feeling you got when you were apart from people for a long time.
That no matter what, if people were around you, you wouldn't be lonely.
Looking back, I now see that I was naive.
After going through my first relationships, and seeing them tank in horrible fiery messes, I now know that you dont need to be apart from everyone to be lonely.
You just need to be apart from the one you wanna see.
I am finally starting to comprehend.
A year is a long time to be lonely, and for a long time, I was content.
But in recent weeks, in particular the last week or two, I have started to feel it more present. The attention I have recieved from him has clouded my vision in regards to what I am used to.
I am lonely.

Me again.

Ahh!
Yeh, I know I'm back for the second time today, but I just wanna write what I'm feeling down, which is defiantly the thing a blog is for, so I am gonna make the most of it while I am in this odd mood of mine. This... unsatisfied mood? No, that sounds terrible. Um... Gah! What's the word I am looking for? How abouts... -un happy-.. yeh, lets got with that. Un happy.
So... yeh.
Lets go, yo!
So, I feel as if I should start from the beginning. But you already know quite a lot... But no, I do feel as if i should. But i also feel as if I would be inconveniencing you by doing so.
Oh fine, you convinced me! xD
So, for my New Years Resolutions last year, I decided to do a shit-load, so I will have a real chance of actually achieving at least one of them. 31 in total. :)
So, One of the main ones was to stay single for the year. And trust me, It hasn't been easy wanting to keep it. I have been wanting to get rid of it for months, due to some boys coming and going, being all too easy to like.
But now... I am really staring to like his guy.
Ben Reihana.
I dont know what it is about him, but he is nice to me. I don't get that often from boys, and even when I do, it's rare and often followed by some nasty-ness of some sorts. He's also part of the popular-type group (as popular was you can get at my school anyway) xD So when he talks to me, it's a shock. It's something that really takes me by surprise.
He gives me butterflies when I think about him, or look at him, but not when I'm talking to him.
When I talk to him, I keep my cool. ;)
It's a trick I have mastered. :3
Anyway, I just feel as if I have to get this all out somehow. No matter how bad I want it to happen, how bad I wanna talk to someone and let it ALL out. I mean, Ruby would be perfect. I will plan that for another time.
I just... I just wanna have something perfect and beautiful with someone.
I wouldn't say I'm desperate.
Lordy no.
Lonely though?
Hell yeh.
I HATE being single when everyone around me is getting into relationships. I mean, sure, when I see people like Ruby breaking up with Jake, I wonder; 'Is it worth it?'. But I remember how happy she was, and I realize it really is.
The heartbreak is only temporary.
And the heartbreak doesn't need to be there at all.
I want the typical teenage relationship.
-sigh- I'm sounding desperate now, aren't I? -facepalm-
I talked to Nick about it once, and he was the same as me, agreeing that he also wanted that 'Childhood Sweetheart'. Someone you can look back on in 20 years and still remember how in love you were with them.
I am sad to say, at the moment, I have only one to look back on without cringing, and he is now Gay, so I still cringe a little.
The worry that it was you who turned him off girls is forever to be a worry in your mind when this happenes, trust me.

-facepalm-
Kaisa'x

If only I were prepared.

Today, I found out that I am reckless, but I am deathly afraid of the consequences of those actions.
Last night, I was texting Ben Reihana (the guy i like xDD) and Mitchell, and I dunno, I managed to say things that made me feel like a complete idiot today. I somehow expected them to try and talk to me about the things I said, or something, but nothing has changed, especially where Mitchell is concerned, 'cause I asked him for advice (which didnt help AT ALL by the way.) on what I should do with Ben, although I didn't use Ben's name. No need to elude Mitchell to the fact I like his friend ;)
Anyway, I feel like a complete idiot, especially around Ben, 'cause he doesn't like... Idk, all he talks to me about is the Gym, which is like... making me kinda BLAH! 'Cause we haven't had a proper convo about anything other than the gym or Circuits.
It's lame.
But I like him anyway. ;)
I can't help it.

New Hope.

I seem to have found someone who likes me? 

I hope?

*sigh* 

It's one of those things where you simply aren't sure, and you don't wanna make a fool of yourself by like... putting yourself out there. I mean, I do like him, thats for sure. I get butterflies when I see him, and the eye contact we keep on sharing is a good feeling, especially when there are smiles exchanged. 

I get nervous though, looking away too quickly. 

I should be the tough bitch and hold his gaze for a little longer. then get nervous and look away. That way, he'll see how he makes me nervous. 

:3 It's a brilliant plan!

I just hate being single. 

It sucks.

<3

Kaisa'x

No-One For Me?

iHola!
And welcome to my first thinking blog post. I know I have been meaning to post my book post, but I've had to start again, and have lost the motivation after it was lost about a month ago when the site crashed. :| Just my luck, right?

So, in this post, I was planning on writing to you and telling you what was running through my head a couple of weeks ago. I was at a Movie Night with my friends, at Ben's place. We called it a Social Gathering, i think it was, later on in the night after we had walked to town and back, but that has nothing to do with the post.

ANYWAY! I was sitting with Ben's older sister, Whitney, and we were talking, cause all the others had gone up town for a pie and energy drink run. We were talking about boys, as girls do, and I realized that I was the only one in the group of us at the 'Social Gathering' who was still single (Whitney didn't count 'cause she's not in our group xD)

That made me sad. I mean, Josh had his Mrs Josh's Missus (Sarah), Nick has his Tehgan, Angie had her Tarn, and Ben and Ruby are just waiting to happen.

And then there's little ol' Kaisa. Alone. With no one to snuggle.. no one to love...

Alone.

>.<

So, it was like 5:30am, we were watching Transformers, and I swear I was the only one watching. Tarn and Angie were 'making out' on the mattress which I had been kicked off of TWICE!, Josh was asleep on the couch, and so were Ben and Ruby on the bed. Nick had left, so I was left sitting on the small one-seater couch-thing with nothing to entertain myself. SO! I took out my book and pen, and my iPod to drown out the sounds of the two on the mattress, and set to writing.

I was extremely upset by this point, and I could almost feel tears coming, which i was not looking forward to shedding, especially with it so quiet in the room, except for the two lovebirds. They werent exactly quiet. xDD

This was what I wrote:
(Excuse my swearing ;D)

'Oh Lordy.
So super fucking awkward and lonely right now.
The whole night spent as the only single person in the room with no one to relate to has kinda got me... nogilistic... (is that how you say it??)
It got me wondering whether I was really happy being single. I realized I'm not, but there's not a whole lot I can do about it.
Boy's simply don't like me, and it hurts.
Because of a reason I am unawares of.
It's bullshit.
And I hate it.
Fuuuuuuck yo!
>.<
Y'know, I just wanna have someone like Angie has Tarn, or like Abbey has Chris.
The love they share is so beautiful and pure, and I just want to share it too.
Have some love of my own.
All night was just spent with soon-to-be-couple Ben and Ruby (they just don't know it yet), making-out couple Tarn and Angie, taken Josh by his Sarah (who was not present) and taken Nick by his Teghan (who didn't have the balls to show up.)
I was alone.
So lonely.
Just wanting to be loved.
I am a sucker for love, I really am, and I really want to find it.
Even just find someone who wants me.
I'll be happy if someone admits to liking me, and preferably acts upon it.
But I'm not too fazed, y'know?
I'm just too self-conscious about myself, and I feel like no one is interested in me, which is extremely... hurtful. In a way.
I dont know how to explain it.
I feel as if I'm not good enough for anyone, and the fact no-one anyone asked me to Formal even as a friend really pretty much kicked me in the gonads.
I'm going to Formal alone.
F.M.L!
*sigh*
I hate this.
So much.
Fuuuuuuuuuuuuuckkk!!!
Now I feel sick. :'(
It's all this bullshit. Blaaaahhh!!!!
Lochie and Sam seem like my best bets. I mean Lochie is super nice and stuff... aaaaand Sam is really awesome and nice and funny and I would LOVE to be with him, but I don't know what's going on with him and Kim. She asked him to Formal with her, so IDK if she likes him and expects them to get together afterwards...
IDK.
It's all a mess.
I keep seeing him looking at me in Maths, the only class we have together...
It just keeps fuelling my hope.'

As you can see, I was pretty down in the dumps, getting pretty desperate sounding by the end there. xDD

But, at least you have seen me in a pretty bad place. Im still there, lets be honest with each other, strange person of the internet. I havent been the same since before the Formal. The Formal was a huge kick in the heart. I mean, I got asked to dance by Ben, and that was courtesy. He promiced me, thats all. *sigh*

Me and Ruby at the Formal. :3 ^^

Me and Ben. :3


Love you all.
'Till next time, y'all.

<3
Kaisa'x

Short Women's Styles. :3

Hallo!
:)

So, here we are, sitting in my warm comfy bed at 10:30pm, my heat pump blasting, and my fingers still ice. >.< Typical Autumn night, to be honest. Maybe it's because my bed is at the opposite side of the room to the heat pump. I may have to fix that.

Also, we have arrived just in time for my first official subject-type post. *blows party hooter thingee*

              <- that thingee! :3

 I'm excited! Are you excited!? xD! 

^-^

So, lets get cracking! :)

FIRST UP; Short Women's Hairstyles, 2011. 

Now, I know it's a pretty hard topic to start off on, but I feel it's best to start with just one topic, and continue through them. So, I decided to start with Short Women's hair. *rolls eyes* I don't even know why, but lets try anyway.

Over the last couple of years, we have seen the woman's perception on the instance of short hair change. No longer was long, dead straight hair 'in'. Instead were the daring cropped locks and pixie cuts.

It all started off with Victoria Beckham, the Queen of Short Hair, sporting the 'Pob' back in 2006, which sparked a world-wide fascination on sexy short hair on a woman. Previous styles suggest woman on the early 2000's were only interested in long, bouncy, curled and highlighted hair. This edgy short cut on Victoria was a step in the right direction, as far as fashion and style experts are concerned.

 Victoria Beckham, 2005.

Victoria Beckham, 2006.

As you can see, it was a strong stride against what had been called 'beautiful' for so long, which was what made it so sexy, so desirable.

After Victoria started to really push this trend, other celebs came out of the woodwork having already had this look done, or have gotten it done since it became the now hot look.

Kiera Knightley. 2005.

Sienna Miller. 2006.

Rihanna. 2007

Rihanna. 2008.

These women have all done something that ordinary woman are usually afraid of; being un-afraid of looking like a boy. They have gone out, gotten one of the strongest and most difficult looks to pull off, and they have done just that, leading the way for celebs to call up their stylists and demand they get it done too.

In 2010-2011, the short pixie look is rare, more celebs wanting to stick with a bob so they can do more with it. But there are the few that have stuck with the shorter lengths, and have become well known for it.

Emma Watson. 2010.

After finishing filiming on the final Harry Potter film, Watson went out and got her hair cut off into this chic pixie, which she had wanted for years, but had been un-allowed to get done because of her contract. 

The severe shortness of the cut has brought out her delicate facial features, which helps her in her Chanel campaigns, of which she is the face of.

Cate Blanchett. 2011.

At the 2011 Academy Awards, Blanchett arrived in a pale lavender architectural gown, sporting a new short bob. The shorter lengths have instantly freshened her look, and brought out her very prominent cheek bones.

Frankie Sandford. 2010.

Hope you enjoyed it! xD 

^-^

Kaisa'x

An Introduction into Hair. ;)

Hey!
So, the first few of my blogs will be about hairstyles, and some that I particularly like and kinda want to have. ^-^ But, alas, I am not allowed to dye my hair anymore. Not because of strict parents; no, I have dyed my hair too many times, that if I have to bleach it once more, there is a very real possibility that it will all fall out... and I don't want that. 
So, brunette I am staying until it all gets healthy again... ;3 Well, until my 18th birthday next year, when I am planning on going all out on a Hayley Williams inspired look. 

^^ Hayley Williams. ^-^

So, I was thinking of having a really really light blonde, like Platinum, under the fringe and down in a layer along the side following my fringe (on the right side of my face) down to the back of my head on a diagonal, with a small section doing the same on the left side of my face but not to the back. Then, have a orange/ginger colour over top of the blond, following it around on both sides. Like these sorts of colours...

See the orange over the right side? Yeah, like that, WITH a dark red on top, because I am a natural DARK brunette, so that way, the brown re-growth wont be as obvious. ^-^ This red, I am thinking. 

The darker red at the top. Mash that all-together, and you get something that looks VERY similar to this:

So you see, boys and girls... I am ambitious. :) You need only look at the vast progression of colours my hair has changed to over the years to see this. I would add a collage... but I'm too lazy to make one. Meh, you'll see it one day. ^-^

ANYWAY! 

I got sidetracked.

Talking about me on my own blog? Would never have guessed that would have happened. >.< 

So... HAIR! 

It is a way for teens and 20-somethings to express who they are, without having to be actually vocal about the point. 

                            

Over the past couple of years, hair has tamed down from what used to be the hip styles of the 70's, 80's and 90's... and lets admit it, the style of the 00's was so reminiscent of those days, it was like we were stuck in a bad 90's music video. (Vanilla Ice, I'm talking to you.)

But since around 2007, fashion and style have taken a turning point. No more of the ill-fitting clothing often found on over-30's around the globe, no more of the high-riding jeans that no matter how much you try not to, you cant help looking and wondering what possessed them to buy those horrid things. (Yes, Mom Jeans are out.)

Well-fitting shirts, dresses, tailored jackets and pants started to come into the lime-light, with jeans now so tight, you wonder how people can move in them, let alone go around doing every-day life in them. 

Hair has followed these trends, becoming sleek, modern, and to be honest, more original than it's 80's and 90's counterparts. 

Loose waves are the most wild styles you will find on many of the celebs these days. No more will you find the over-the-top teasing and crimping of before times.

That is all for this post, I'll be posting soon on certain styles of all different times, and certain trends to look out for in the future. 

^-^

Kaisa'x

Welcome one and all.

You've decided to stop in and say hi to the one and only Kaisa Moore, huh?

 <-Me. 

You're too kind. ^-^

In this post I was planning on telling you what I am going to talk about in my later posts, which will, at best, be scarce, and rarely seen.
At least you're fore-warned though. ;)

So... Let's get cracking!

In this blog, I was planning on talking about a whole manner of things, from hairstyles...

...to the latest music.

 I may even throw in the odd artist review, for you artsy-types out there.

:3
My interests are wide, so you may even recieve a Pokemon rant here and there too.

Again, at least you're fore-warned. xD
Also, if you are lucky, I may post some of my writing on here, just so you can have a little read to see what my writing is like. :D

So... I hope you enjoy.
Veil Liebe xx
Kaisa.'x